Monday, April 2, 2012


I strayed away from you.

I was in a tough spot. Nothing seemed to be going my way. Life wasn’t going as I planned and I thought I had it all figured out.

I kept getting hurt and tossed away.

 I gave my heart to so many guys. Guys who didn’t deserve it. Guys who took it for granted and spit it out like it was nothing.

When all you wanted from me was my love and devotion.

 I was looking for temporary satisfaction. Satisfaction that was artificial.

You were the furthest thing from my mind.

You had it all figured out.

I was lost. I was broken. I was confused. I was hurt.

But there you stood by my side calling me, begging me to be with you. To just believe in your word and your love for me.

I thought I was meaningless. My life didn’t matter.

You always knew I’d be back. You gave me some breathing room to grow and change. I had to experience things to know that it’s all temporary.

 The lust, alcohol, everything.

But you. You are eternal. You are never changing. And you are Almighty.

My God. My loving, gracious, beautiful God.

I’m sorry I stopped believing in you. I’m sorry I ever doubted you.

You never gave up on me. You always knew I’d return and I’d be singing your high praises.

Jesus, you are the truth, the life, and the way.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for never giving up on me. I never want to stray away from you again. Because without you…nothing matters.

Life has no meaning.

I want the world to know you.

I love you Jesus and this time I’m sticking around. For good.